Thoughts

I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life lately, and quite frankly I am just scared.  There are a LOT of big changes in my life coming up very quickly.  We want a baby, we are graduating from BYU-I this year, moving 1-3 times, student teaching, Juston applying for grad school.....the list goes on and on.  I feel like all of these are huge....am I ready? Can I do this?  It is all seemed so much easier when it was in the distant future.  Now that it is in the near future I am a little scared.  I haven't really ever done anything except school.  Yes, I've had lots of jobs and things like that, but never anything REAL.  I've babysat tons, but that is nothing compared to being a MOM. I've had lots of time in classrooms, but that was more as an aide than as a teacher.  Everything is getting so close and I am just getting more and more nervous.

On Thursday I start my first day in the classroom for my Senior Practicum.  It will be the entire school day twice a week.  During this semester I have to teach 10 formal lessons and at least 10 informal lessons.  So pretty much I will be teaching every day.  The last time I actually TAUGHT was like 5 semesters ago.  And neither of those lessons went all that amazingly.  Teaching scares me a little bit.  I don't feel ready yet.  But, I guess it is good that I have this semester before I student teach.  At least I will get a lot of practice before I am teaching ALL day EVERY day, right?  I really hope I learn a lot in this class so I can actually do student teaching......

Oh life....I keep saying I am excited to join the real world.  But what really is the REAL world? And why am I so excited to leave this comfort zone?  Yes, school is stressful and the cold/snow are sometimes less than desirable.  But this little town is comfortable.  I know it.  I have lots of friends here.  I have teachers to ask questions to.  What do I do when I leave all of this?

I can do this.  I know I can.  I just needed to spill some of my thoughts/feelings I'm having.....